Mary K's ramblings

20 April 2005

Those are the two words I would use to describe my state of being right now.

I am overwhelmed with school. I have not been in school in over a decade and everything with this class has me on edge. I am doing well and enjoying it for the most part. I just don't want to mess up. That hangs over my head. Satan likes to whisper words of failure and incompetence.

I am also overwhelmed with work. It is irritating and I am being micromanaged by a multitude of people. That makes me feel like the world is trying to crash down around my ears.

I am melancholy because things don't feel like they are going well in my life. Again, satan likes to whisper lies in my ear and when I feel blah or sad, I tend to listen. My mom is leaving to return to Brazil today and that adds to my melancholy also.

All of these things have me looking to the Lord. I have not been seeking Him with a fervent heart. I hav held Him at a distance and I am feeling that in my life.

Sorry for the somber, just trying to be honest. See, I do feel a little better even now for having been honest in this open forum.

Have a blessed day and seek the Lord with all your heart and being.

fofinha posted at 8:00 AM

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