27 July 2006

Pity - Party of one

Okay, so I have been gone for a while. Life has overwhelmed me and I feel lost in my own life right now.

I am overcome with so much emotion I don’t know what to do. I am scared to cry much because I am afraid I won’t be able to stop. I cry a bit but then I do my best to stick the finger in the crack of the dam. I am in a pity party over a lot of things. I am glad that I will be seeing my therapist tomorrow. I will be making notes to take to her. I don’t like who I am right now and I don’t like what is going on right now either. I understand that my life is changing and I am moving. I just feel as though I am being cut out of my life in a way that is unnatural and VERY painful.

Please pray for me, my fiancé, my family and my mental state. I am trying not to pluck out my hair due to stress and trying not to melt down and become a bigger puddle than I already feel like on the inside.

fofinha posted at 11:49 PM